Sunday 29 May 2011

20 and a half...

..days til Ibiza!! Whoop whoop! You're jealous right?? Hee hee.

To be honest i'm not sure what to say as not a lot has changed since the last post - i'm still eating healthily, still exercising and still trying to give it 100% but without piling a tonne of pressure on myself and being overly strict.

So, what can I write in this post that would justify you taking time out of your busy schedule to read it??

Well, I thought (as its the bank holiday and we all know that I struggle to stay on the straight and narrow when at home surrounded by food!) I'd share my awesomely yummy yet good for you bank holiday meals...

Saturday:
Yesterday was football night! I'm a big fan of Man Utd so watching them play Barcelona in the Champions League final whilst I slobbed out on the sofa with a beer and pizza would have been heaven! But due to obvious reasons this would have hindered any fat loss so I found a meal worthy of football time in the form of... Pickle's Chicken Fajitas! Now I know what your thinking- a great big wheat based meal with fried tortilla chips on the side?! But no, Pickle's version is a lot more healthy as I used 50/50 wholegrain wraps, didnt bother making any nachos and didnt add the mayo and cheese to my wraps! I did have a sneaky half a glass of champers with it but managed to pass on the strawberry cheesecake for dessert!

Sunday:
Today is a family day and before the wind decided to turn galeforce we were suppose to be off to Sunny Hunny (Hunstanton!) where I would have undoubtely had a full blown naughty day by feasting on picnic food, a fish and chips dinner and those seaside must haves- dinky doughnuts! Therefore, the weather has kinda done my diet a favour as I will now enjoy just one naughty meal with my parents- sausage, mash, peas and gravy... mmmm! Again I shall have half a glass of wine with this meal but will hold my ground and say "no!" to dessert - apple strudel and custard! **

Monday:
Now i'm really looking forward to tomorrow as I have stumbled across a homemade pizza recipe that takes the cals, carbs and fat of my favourite dish and demolishes the hell out of them! So, i'll be putting on my apron, hitting the kitchen and baking my very own version of a Dominos Tandoori Hot!

So, there's my planned bank holiday meals - if your lucky (and my pizza turns out alright!) I might even pop up a review and pics in my next post!

** Please note that this is my intention at the time of writing this! Once the apple strudel comes out the oven the situation may have to be re-assessed- and if a small portion does happen to find its way down my throat then I might aswell spend the rest of the day tucking into the many other delights in my mums cupboard! Afterall, I am being more relaxed over my diet and if we had gone to Sunny Hunny I would have eaten crap all day anyway right?? (Hee hee!)

Wednesday 25 May 2011

Old habits...

die hard! Yep, when I first started this 12 week plan I did the first 6 weeks without any problems- there were no slip ups, no missed workouts, just 100% determination to stick to my meals and exercise! I really thought I had successfully adapted and changed to a healthier lifestyle BUT since the half way point my old binge eating habits have made a remarkable resurrection!

Especially this week when, after the disappointment that was the weigh in/measure up, I fell into a heavenly weekend of indulgence and I now find the words "stuff it!" floating around my head!

You see, I now realise that the toned, flat, sculpted tum that I wanted for Ibiza is unlikely to be here in the 4 weeks... or anytime soon after that!

But still, I was ready to put my all into these last few weeks to try and shift a couple of extra pounds before I have to squeeze into my bikini. However, my old habits are well and truly alive as yesterdays healthy dinner turned into a KFC chicken bucket, fries, baked beans, coleslaw and half a pack of biscuits!

So, what now? Do I "stuff it!" and attempt to lose my pot belly another time?? Or do I give it a proper go (with 100% devotion) for these last 25 days and see what I can do??
(yep, just 25 days til Ibiza! Whoop whoop!)

Well, I was originally going to "stuff it!" but then the KFC feast I binged on made an ugly re-appearence in my bathroom toilet and helped to change my mind! However, this time i'm not pressuring myself to completely lose my belly as I know thats not going to happen... i'm literally doing it to see what I achieve in 25 days when I put my all into it!

So, starting today, for the next 25 days, i'm going to give it my best shot! And as long as my bodyfat percentage heads the right way (down!) by just a teeny tiny smidgen then i'll be happy. And who knows, maybe by Christmas I will have the toned, flat, sculpted tum I want!

Sunday 22 May 2011

Thud. Thud. Thud.

... is exactly what my heart did as I stepped onto my Weighwatchers scales yesterday morning! I really dont like weighing and measuring myself to the point where I actually feel sick and shake with nerves!

But as yesterday was 4 weeks on from my last weigh in and measure up, it was time to revisit the scales and tape measure. You'd think after 4 weeks of healthy eating and exercising i'd be guaranteed to lose some fat so stepping on the scales shouldn't bother me, but nope, I was scared.... sh!t scared! Because past experiences have shown me that even though I put 100% in, the tape and scales very rarely give me any praise! (And seeing as the last two weeks have been tainted by me having two cheat meals, I really wasnt holding out much hope for this time either!)

So, with my heart pounding out of my chest, I quickly stripped off to my black girlie boxers (which have a funky bright pink band and even funkier bright pink ice cream sundaes on!) and wrapped the tape measure around my lumps and bumps...

... everything pretty much the same! Hmmm...

Already feeling down hearted, I then wibbled and wobbled my way over to the scales and slowly placed both feet either side of the little digital screen...

... Weight lost: 1lb and 3/4. Sh!t!
... Bodyfat lost: .2. Double sh!t!

Crap... absolutely crap! Ater 4 weeks of healthy eating and exercising I lost a measly 1lb and 3/4! Devasted doesnt even come close to how I feel and now I have 4 weeks and dont know whether its worth even trying!

Needless to say, yesterday soon turned into a day of consoling myself.... with beer! And pizza, and more beer, and chips, and even more beer, and onion rings, and finally... more beer! And no, it wasnt my naughty meal! Thats tonight- and yes, I am still going to have it as i'm cooking "Come Dine With Me" style...

Starter
Sesame Halloumi and Baked Camembert
served with caramelised red onion and warm dipping bread

Main
Pan fry duck
served with dauphinoise potatos and vegetables

Dessert
Sticky toffee banana tarte tatin
served with vanilla ice cream

Mmmm, you want some dont ya??

I know that the beer, pizza and my three course feast tonight wont help matters but hey, after 8 weeks of depriving myself to only lose a teeny tiny amount of fat I really need a break to find some motivation!

Luckily, i'm no quitter and am not going to give up! I even managed to stumble out of bed this morning a jog further that ever before.... 3.64 miles in 32 minutes, burning 303 calories apparently!


And after today i'm back to putting 100% in to my diet like before! So, moderate carbs, moderate fat, moderate protein and just one naughty meal a week only!! Seriously, the extra cheat meal and re-arranging of my diet are going to stop as there is only 4 weeks til Ibiza... only 4 weeks til strangers will see me in a bikini! (Eeeek!)

Wednesday 18 May 2011

If you break the rules...

... you pay the price! And thats exactly what I'm doing for yet again having two naughty meals this week. (Actually, I've only had the one so far but as previously mentioned i'm dining at my mums tonight so another one is on the way! And before you ask- yes, I have considered not eating her cooking to save the week but that really doesnt appeal to me!)

So, as I failed miserably to say no to the mounds of mash, roasties, yorkshire pud and stuffing on Sunday and as I will fail miserably to say no to mums salmon pasta tonight, I have cleverly re-thought this weeks eating and exercise to ensure I stay under mainentence calories and hopefully shed a teeny tiny amount of bodyfat this week...

For the exercise: I'm making sure I workout more intensely and am cutting the rest periods between sets/circuits down, also i'm trying to move a little quicker during my cardio. More intensity = more cals burned! (THIS IS GOOD!)

For the diet: I've cut down on my carbs... a tad! (Carbs are vital for energy, workouts... and my sanity!) Of course, while doing this I have been eating plenty of protein, healthy fats and fruit and veg as I dont want to starve! Not enough calories = fat storage! (THIS IS BAD... VERY BAD!)

See, this is one of the great things I love about eating healthily and exercising.... you can always change it to soften the damage of any mishaps! (Which I seem to be encountering a lot of lately! (*blush*) Unfortunately while you can soften the blow, you can't completely recitify the damage! Booo!)

So there you have it! My attempt at softening the blow of yet another week of willpower weakness! Fingers crossed it works otherwise stepping on the scales and wrapping the measuring tape around my lumps and bumps on Saturday morning wont be pretty!

Sunday 15 May 2011

What a pain in the arse...

...literally! I'm walking like John Wayne and am pretty sure my butt cheeks are ripping like a cheap pair of Primark trousers everytime I sit, stand, walk or fart! (Teach me for thinking skipping and biking would be good for me!)

Unfortunatley, when you decide to take up more exercise an achy arse isnt all you get. I have plenty of other aches and pains too- namely in my thighs... and calfs... oh, and my abs... aaaand my sides, arms, shoulders and chest hurt a little too! (I think that covers all my aliments.. oh no, wait... did I mention my butt?!)

But, despite the sore muscles, stiff joints and constant feeling of uncomfortableness, i'm enjoying myself and loving my new workouts which I feel could really strip off some serious fat... if I dont have any repeats of Monday of course!

And this week, to ensure my one naughty meal stays to one naughty meal, I have sacrificed a British constitution - the Sunday roast dinner! You see, on Wednesday evening i'll be dining at my mums... and I can't say "no" to mums cooking... because its always sooooo freaking big, tasty and naughty!! (Mmmm, roll on Wednesday!)

So, with a bit of planning I will avoid another diet disaster by passing on todays yorkshire pud, roast potatoes, gravy and stuffing, to instead indulge in mums cooking later on in the week- pretty smart of me dont ya think?

So, as I would never usually pass up a roast dinner feast, hopefully this means I'm now back on the straight and narrow... which is good seeing as there's just one week til my next weigh in! (Eeeeek!)

Wednesday 11 May 2011

From bad...

...to worse! Is exactly how Monday went!

With glorious sunshine streaming through my bedroom window- the day had started perfectly and I definately had my happy face on! My body felt re-fed from my sisters tasty three course naugthy meal so I woke up feeling pumped up and ready to lift some serious weights in my new routine!

Twenty minutes of lunging, deadlifting, bench pressing and bicep curling not only left me dripping in sweat but burning a shed load of calories! And I wasnt finished! I decided to add 10 minutes of skipping (with a skipping rope! Not prancing around like Michael McIntyre!) which was a lot more fun than I remember!

So yeah, Monday really did start off fabulously and carried on that way until about lunchtime... when my plans of finishing work, making tomorrows meals, going for a bike ride and making dinner all changed... starting with the microwave... which decided to blow up!

So, straight after work it was a trip to Tesco (in rush hour!!) to pick up the cheapest microwave they had. This was immediately followed by me shouting "Tink," "Tinky," as I tried to find my missing cat (been nine days now! (*very sad face*)) after she was possibly sighted a few streets away. The search resulted in me posting lots of missing cat leaflets through lots of doors and walking home catless! (*very very sad face!*)

So, an hour and a half after finishing work, I was finally home and felt a tad deflated and grumpy to say the least! But I went straight into my next job- making my lunch for the next day. Unfortunately, being a tad grumpy meant I was a tad heavy handed when using the cooking timer as it fell off the wall and broke! After plenty of "f-ing" and "blinding" I decided I would just keep an eye on the time and take my salmon out in 30 minutes. But, I forgot!! An hour after going in the oven my sister asked: "How long has your salmon been in?" My answer: "F**king hell! I dont believe this!"

Needless to say I was no longer a tad grumpy- I was extremely grumpy and was in no mood for a bike ride! I stomped upstairs, pulled on my pjs, slumped on the sofa and...

... ordered Domino's!!

I know, I know! Two cheat meals in two evenings! I'm absolutely gutted as I was doing so well. And I felt really really guilty...the next day! (Because that Domino's was yum and I didnt feel guillty about one bite as I shoveled it in my mouth!!)

Fortunately I don't think my slip up is too bad! My Dominos craving is now out of my system and by sticking to the rest of my meals I should still have some calorie deflict for the week. Plus, i've been active... yesterday I went for my morning jog and did my missed bike ride in the evening... and today I did another fun workout and I will go swimming tonight! (Yep, i'm back on track! I think!)

Sunday 8 May 2011

Six down...

...six to go!! Yep, I have finally reached the half way point... and i've stuck to my plan 100%! (Woo hoo!! Go me!! (*big, wide, cheesy grin*))

For some reason my determination to do this is through the roof! But its not easy and despite having one naughty meal a week, saying "no" to all my favourite treats throughout the week has been torture! I mean celebrating Easter without having a hot cross bun smothered in butter and jam just felt wrong... and it feels wrong knowing that I have to say "no" for a further six weeks!! (*sighs*)

But, being half way through means there's no giving up now! And reaching week six is not only great for my belief that I can do this, but its exciting as i'm going to shake things up by...

... doing lots of new workout routines!

After six weeks of lifting the same weights, in the same order, on the same days you cant really blame me- talk about getting a tad bored! But it wont be easy because I know my body will have to work alot harder as it won't be used to the new routines! So i'm expecting plenty of sore muscles and achy limbs but as they say... no pain, no gain!

Not only that but I will be trying to do more cardio! So as well as going for my morning jogs and doing weight routines, i'm also hoping to pedal my way up and weeeeeeeeeee myself down a very steep hill on Monday and Friday evenings, and front crawl my way up and down the lengths of a swimming pool on Wednesday evenings! (I know! Its alot! Are the words "cant do this" springing to anyone else's mind??)

But all that starts tomorrow so i'm going to forget about it for now... after all its the weekend... and my beloved Man Utd are set to take in their closest rivals... and my big sister is preparing my naughty meal!!

Yep, she's cooking her little sister a three course "come dine with me" style meal of:

Starter: Wild mushroom bruschetta
Main: Chicken stuffed with chorizo and mozzarella served with cushed new potatos and veg
Dessert (which is always my fav course!!): A huge toffee apple crumble with ice cream
And for after dinner.... coffee with After Eight mints!

Mmmm mmmmmm (*licks lips*)

Sounds like loads eh!? Betcha I eat it all though!! And that doesnt include the numerous glasses of bubbly and wine i'll be downing all evening!

Wednesday 4 May 2011

Losing weight is...

... hard! Because its boring!

... painful! Because i've developed shin splints!

... slow... very very slow! Because I still have my pot belly!!

I dont have the patience of a saint and I get bored very easily and very quickly. This is not good seeing as fat loss involves a lot of time and repetition.... running up and down the same street, lifting the same weights, listening to the same songs on the same iPod and filling the shopping trolley with the same amount of the same foods. (Weirdly, although the same amount of the same foods go into the trolley, the bill total rises each week!)

But, as the weather cheers up it makes it a lot easier for me to tolerate my early morning alarm clock as I know my morning jogs listening to my favourite songs can now be done in bright sunshine! Unfortunately, its a little less enjoyable at the mo due to my achy right shin/calf, which the internet tells me is shin splints due to me trying to run a little further each week! Aint the Internet clever!?

Its also sooooo much easier to eat salads, fruit, vegetables, fish etc when the weather is hotter! I mean no-one cuddles up on the sofa on a cold, dark December night munching on a tuna salad do they? No, its all about chips, gravy, pizza, curry, chocolate and all the other yummy comfort food that i'm not suppose to be eating during these 12 weeks!

So, although its hard, painful, slightly restrictive, very repetitive with results taking forever, I know I have the willpower and motivation to see this through because...

... so far i'm still enjoying it!
... the numbers on the scales and measuring tape are going the right way!
... i'm curious to see what my body will look like after these 12 weeks! (And for everyone's sake it better not look the same!!)